People who give sermons about having learnt from their mistakes , moving on and how pain has made them stronger and smarter, are the ones who are struggling the most to believe if all of this is even possible. Well I would refrain from categorising myself apart from this herd but to say the least I think I am thankful. Thankful for all the thrillers , the suspense bound mind boggling experiences and a story , a story which in retrospection seems to be worthy of my time and efforts to be penned down finally in black ink. For now lets leave the story part for two reasons as I have saved it for something big and I have no idea about the climax.
Just had a strong urge to write down something , anything and why not after all its always happening at my end. Been a little preoccupied and burdened lately with work. But all of this has given me a little insight into a discovery. A realisation that how I have changed over the years and what it really means to know your responsibility at a work place , "responsibility at work place" I would have laughed like a maniac had anyone given that to me 3 years back. But its all different now , I am different now. When I enter my workplace , its like I leave the outside world to be specific my personal life behind. There is a certain sort of calm I feel , all my senses soothed down as if its almost a meditation ground. The kind of responsibilities that lie on my shoulders, surmounting as the days go by , makes me feel wanted , trusted and most importantly worthy.
I am in love completely and absolutely with my work, its a part of me now , a part I never would want to part from. The entire day just passes away like a flash. I don't have much friends in office but thats not to say I don't know people. Of course I know a whole bunch but by friends I am referring to the old school definition of friends.
But there are two aspects other than work that completely bind me to my workplace. One is TT(table tennis) , it won't be an exaggeration if I say I play around 13 games on an average every single day. Started on it pretty slowly , never thought if I would ever be able to return a serve on that tiny table , lawn tennis is more of like my thing. Like always , I start slow and then I am just unstoppable. Every time I hit that ferocious forehand in the corner with a blazing speed , the feeling is undeniably raw , majestic and just. Though its rare that my legs are not hurting after doing all of that jumping jack stuff around that small table but nothing compared to the solace I find in the fact that it gives me a chance to live my sporting idol Rafael Nadal in some way or the other. Oh boy you should see me hitting it with that precision one after the other , it makes me almost feel guilty to have discovered the love for this sport so late and almost makes me feel regret for not having laid my hands on it during college where you have all the time in the world to do everything but study. Yes by college I mean engineering college , where else on earth you don't ever have to study.
And the second would be the gym , which nobody can deny is probably the only place where you get more pleasure with more pain. After finally convincing myself that I am accruing fat with age , I took up the vow to finally let go of all the fat I have gained in last 3 years. Humans , they can never be satisfied , I was not happy when I was 49 and I am not happy when I am 70. As it stands today , I run relentlessly for 40 mins on that treadmill and then spend about one hour doing my other usual stuff with weights and all. It's tiring , your muscles cramp , your mind feels dizzy and sometimes when you over do entire body comes down breaking like a heap of cards. Its all worth what you get when you look yourself in the mirror. So with these two activity my day at workplace finally ends on a high all the time.
In the end I can only say its a part of growing up , a part of you discovering yourself , realising your true potential to fight the adversities of life. Trust me everyone is struggling , trust me everyone wants to break down once in a while even the strongest amongst us , trust me life is too big for just negative emotions to engross you completely and trust me love is the purest emotion in its most raw form but only when you don't restrict it in any form. I have discovered love for my life , for my work , for people who care for me and need me to be happy , for that special someone , may you too discover yours soon :)
Just had a strong urge to write down something , anything and why not after all its always happening at my end. Been a little preoccupied and burdened lately with work. But all of this has given me a little insight into a discovery. A realisation that how I have changed over the years and what it really means to know your responsibility at a work place , "responsibility at work place" I would have laughed like a maniac had anyone given that to me 3 years back. But its all different now , I am different now. When I enter my workplace , its like I leave the outside world to be specific my personal life behind. There is a certain sort of calm I feel , all my senses soothed down as if its almost a meditation ground. The kind of responsibilities that lie on my shoulders, surmounting as the days go by , makes me feel wanted , trusted and most importantly worthy.
I am in love completely and absolutely with my work, its a part of me now , a part I never would want to part from. The entire day just passes away like a flash. I don't have much friends in office but thats not to say I don't know people. Of course I know a whole bunch but by friends I am referring to the old school definition of friends.
But there are two aspects other than work that completely bind me to my workplace. One is TT(table tennis) , it won't be an exaggeration if I say I play around 13 games on an average every single day. Started on it pretty slowly , never thought if I would ever be able to return a serve on that tiny table , lawn tennis is more of like my thing. Like always , I start slow and then I am just unstoppable. Every time I hit that ferocious forehand in the corner with a blazing speed , the feeling is undeniably raw , majestic and just. Though its rare that my legs are not hurting after doing all of that jumping jack stuff around that small table but nothing compared to the solace I find in the fact that it gives me a chance to live my sporting idol Rafael Nadal in some way or the other. Oh boy you should see me hitting it with that precision one after the other , it makes me almost feel guilty to have discovered the love for this sport so late and almost makes me feel regret for not having laid my hands on it during college where you have all the time in the world to do everything but study. Yes by college I mean engineering college , where else on earth you don't ever have to study.
And the second would be the gym , which nobody can deny is probably the only place where you get more pleasure with more pain. After finally convincing myself that I am accruing fat with age , I took up the vow to finally let go of all the fat I have gained in last 3 years. Humans , they can never be satisfied , I was not happy when I was 49 and I am not happy when I am 70. As it stands today , I run relentlessly for 40 mins on that treadmill and then spend about one hour doing my other usual stuff with weights and all. It's tiring , your muscles cramp , your mind feels dizzy and sometimes when you over do entire body comes down breaking like a heap of cards. Its all worth what you get when you look yourself in the mirror. So with these two activity my day at workplace finally ends on a high all the time.
In the end I can only say its a part of growing up , a part of you discovering yourself , realising your true potential to fight the adversities of life. Trust me everyone is struggling , trust me everyone wants to break down once in a while even the strongest amongst us , trust me life is too big for just negative emotions to engross you completely and trust me love is the purest emotion in its most raw form but only when you don't restrict it in any form. I have discovered love for my life , for my work , for people who care for me and need me to be happy , for that special someone , may you too discover yours soon :)
